Reflections...

Probably going to be a bit more of a serious post, self-reflection and journaling combined. 

When I first got word that I might be getting to go back on tour, there was definite excitement. But as it goes, I always know that nothing is definite in the entertainment business until you're actually doing it...or at least gotten paid for it too hopefully. So when things didn't work out for the first PA to go, I was ecstatic to get a confirmation and a check in the mail that I was getting to go. And of all bands, Hillsong United was hiring me through Premier Productions. I couldn't have been more overjoyed. 

When I left, I had a sense of two things oddly: that this was to start a new chapter in my life and a strange feeling someone would die while I was on tour. Weird, I know. 

I always work my butt off no matter what job I am doing of my 9+ jobs. The 18+ hour days are very physically taxing and demanding. You don't get a chance to rest or nap or sleep in. You wake up at 7am and you go go go until 2am, or whenever everyone else gets done so you can go to bed. 

Last week I got news that someone I knew from back home died. I took it a lot harder than I thought I would just because I only really hung out with his brother, but it still hit me a few times. I stuck it out and kept going taking breaks to mourn as needed. I think that it wasn't do much mourning my loss, but more for those I know still here that he left behind. My heart is kinda sensitive that way. 

Now that the tour is done as far as shows are concerned, I head back to Nashville to unload, and then back home to the freezing Atlanta. 

I don't feel like I'm returning to the same Atlanta even though I've only been gone just under a few weeks. I feel like when I get back, God has more great things in store for me. That this was just the beginning of blessings for being faithful and focusing more on Him, and for being obedient. 

Externally, nothing has probably changed in Atlanta, but I feel like I'll have a new perspective on several things when I get back. I'm not sure what those things may be yet. But I'm just as excited with anticipation as I was when leaving for the tour.